There Once Was a Cute Pair of Shoes...

Okay - so I swear I am not trying to dwell on this whole shoe issue, but seriously I'm kind of pissed. I have never in my life been deprived something as silly as a pair of summer-time sandals with no explanation or justification. Sure it's a funny story when I go on a mini rant about how annoyed I am that this jackass I was "dating" (per him, of course) can't be bothered to make a simple return phone call, email, or text message to explain why he is unable or unwilling to return my precious shoes. I mean, I kind of think that I deserve at least this mindless effort, especially considering the bullshit I had to endure the third time I ever hung out with this guy.

I think the thing that bothers me the most about not having my shoes, is that I don't really feel it's deserved. As far as I know there was never a reason for this hostile behavior, so the whole situation is terribly confusing. Please note that I too think it's a bit silly that I'm sitting here blogging about the loss of my shoes, but I really have made every effort available to me to try and get in touch with this person, and frankly, I won't resort to making a fool of myself. If you want to ignore me, it's your loss. But, sadly, in this case, I am losing something too - two somethings damnit!

Oh well, I think this is going to have to be the last of the my shoe sobbing. This guy is probably a nice guy under any other circumstance (or not, who knows!) but I just think it's kind of dumb. I guess it's a lesson learned - never, ever leave your shoes at someone's house when you are dating them because apparantly you can't really tell how things are going to turn out day to day and you might just end up shoe-less!

Wouldn't It Be Nice If...

It would be so fantastic to have a single day off. A day to simply sleep, lounge around, watch a few LMN movies, finish my laundry, and put the vacuum away (it has been sitting in my bedroom for over a week because I didn't have quite enough time to finish cleaning). It would also be really fabulous to have a few nights off a week to cook - I am home so rarely in the evening that I typically only get one or two nights a week to be the designated chef, which is sometimes a little depressing because I sincerely enjoy cooking.

Let me clarify - I'm not complaining. I like being busy, and nothing I am currently involved in makes me stressed or disappointed. I just wish that in addition to these fabulous committments I could implement a little of the above. I think having a day to not shower is sometimes the best day of the week - and I haven't had one in I don't even know how long! Aside from the benefit of much needed relaxation, those types of days save you a lot of money in the long run - it's one day you don't use the shampoo, conditioner, mousse, hairspray, skin-care, and make-up. I don't know about anyone else, but I am all for being cheap-as-hell. If there is a way to save some money - sign me up!

Speaking of saving money (and yes, I sometimes have a short-attention span and my thoughts go all over the place), I am having a meeting with the admissions man at Newman in two weeks. The bit about saving money is that I am having this meeting with a friend of mine from school. Obviously the point of going together is to save some money on gas, since we are both broke-ass college students. I totally don't mind the idea of going with this chick, as I really like her and we have very similar goals and objectives. But, I have to be honest in that sometimes I am a little selfish and like things to be more mine than anyone elses. And, I know myself well enough to say that there are times I implement a bit of dominance to get exactly what I want. No, this is not always a good quality, by any means, but I am a little worried that I am going to be really concerned about having my questions answered, which will "force" me to exert a little aggression to ensure my needs are met. I don't really want to bully my friend out of question and answer time...but some people have a tendancy to fucking rattle! Great as this gal is, I have been in class with her for over 8 weeks and this is something I have noted in her conversational skills. So, I am wondering how much strong-arming I'll have to implement, and I am hoping if it comes to this, my friend will understand that I am simply making sure the really important questions are getting answered! Relationships are so difficult!

Oh, and on that note (very quickly as I need to hop in the shower about four minutes ago), my field supervisor, Greg (who is amazing!), was telling me the other day that my dominance is probably a bit threatening to my male counterparts. Not that he was calling me scary or anything, and in fact he was also complimenting my assertiveness, but he was commenting on the fact that he suspected it had caused some problems for me in the past. Clearly, he was correct - and I have found that a lot of guys hope I'll be the the crazy girl in distress so they can swoop in and make everything better, kind of like a Knight in Shining Armour (forgive my very overused cliche). But, yeah - guys that date me kind of have to figure out really quickly that I don't need a hero, by any means. I just need an equal - someone who is as much dominant as they are submissive, such as myself. And, no, I am not speaking of the sexual type of dominant/submissive relationship - ick! I have just found that guys who can be both will mesh better with me, and this is sort of difficult to find. Not impossible, but difficult.

And that is all the random crap I have time to share for now - and yes, I am going to end it without any type of conclusion seeing as there's really no point!

Never Trust a Big Butt and a Smile!

I keep reading blogs that other people post, and I have decided that I am just not measuring up when it comes to having an interesting and exciting life. Don't get me wrong, I love what I'm doing with my days and I certainly wouldn't change very much, but I feel as though I'm lacking something significantly important by not having a blog to share my thoughts in. I mean, my mind is terribly interesting, so why shouldn't I force my babble and opinions on whoever chooses to read this - isn't that the entire point of a blog?

The truth of the matter is that I get a little bored sometimes, especially when I am in procrastination mode (i.e. NOT wanting to write another fucking paper), and I feel as though my only outlet is a survey on MySpace! God knows I've filled out every survey that could possibly exist, and probably bored everyone to tears with my redundant answers. So, I have decided to rely on a new outlet - the blog! I can assure you I will post very infrequently, and anything I say will be pretty useless and likely a bit understimulating. But, that's the beauty of owning something, now, isn't it? It's mine and I will do with it as I please, biatch!

So, to begin, I will briefly update you on my life at present. I am interning for the disability resource center at Metro State, working as a case manager for students with disabilities. This experience thus far has been amazing, and I have decided I absolutely, one hundred percent made the right decision to pursue Social Work as my field of study. Additionally, I am attending school full-time and am quickly heading into my final semester! I will be graduating in May 2009, and am excited as crap! Yes - I like to say "as crap". In fact, I told a lady at work the other day that her outfit was "cuter than crap". She smiled, and I was pleased with myself. Speaking of work, I have finally become a bonafide make-up artist. I work for Clinique at Nordstrom, and it's pretty much the bomb. I spend my time making women pretty, and I have shitloads upon shitloads of free make-up. Talk about a girl's ultimate dream...

I date. That's something that seems to be relatively consistent. Although, I'm not sure "dating" is the appropriate term. I think it would be more honest to say that I hang out and have sex with someone, and by hanging out, I mean to say that we have sex. I am not being crass or sharing too much - it just happens to be the truth. He's sexier than crap, and I like it. But, that's not to say that I don't also think about alternative venues ("venue" being "men" in this case). I have an ex who I love dearly, and he happens to love me too. That's something that stays on my mind, and I feel pretty lucky to have someone so amazing in my life. Otherwise, there's someone else that I have thought about, but nothing has really come from that so far. I guess one of us will have to make a move eventually if there's any real interest. Truly, though, I enjoy being single, especially when I go dancing with my hot, single, female friends! I think the whole dating thing is kind of funny, and the other day, my very innocent co-worker, Amanda, asked me,"So, how are all of your boyfriends"...ha!

The only other interesting thing to share at this exact moment is that I am in the process of applying for graduate school. I am submitting applications to both Denver University and Newman University (in Colorado Springs). Both schools have excellent MSW (Master in Social Work) programs, and I am really excited to see what happens. The biggest obstacle that I am currently pondering is the whole tuition thing. Not quite sure how I'm going to work that out, but I have been told that I have the ability to make things happen when I really want something. I have such wonderful friends and family.

So, that's me and my life in a nutshell. Oh, I forgot to mention that I really want to be more committed to working out and eating healthier, and that is a goal I really plan to implement starting immediately. I seem to have excellent follow through in every area of my life, except this one. So, I'm really pushing myself to stay focused and make this a priority. Feel free to hold me to this if I start mentioning a major slacker attitude!

Anyhow - this is my self-introduction. Now that we've gotten this bad-boy out of the way, I will plan to post something else that is like, about something. Totally.