Wouldn't It Be Nice If...

It would be so fantastic to have a single day off. A day to simply sleep, lounge around, watch a few LMN movies, finish my laundry, and put the vacuum away (it has been sitting in my bedroom for over a week because I didn't have quite enough time to finish cleaning). It would also be really fabulous to have a few nights off a week to cook - I am home so rarely in the evening that I typically only get one or two nights a week to be the designated chef, which is sometimes a little depressing because I sincerely enjoy cooking.

Let me clarify - I'm not complaining. I like being busy, and nothing I am currently involved in makes me stressed or disappointed. I just wish that in addition to these fabulous committments I could implement a little of the above. I think having a day to not shower is sometimes the best day of the week - and I haven't had one in I don't even know how long! Aside from the benefit of much needed relaxation, those types of days save you a lot of money in the long run - it's one day you don't use the shampoo, conditioner, mousse, hairspray, skin-care, and make-up. I don't know about anyone else, but I am all for being cheap-as-hell. If there is a way to save some money - sign me up!

Speaking of saving money (and yes, I sometimes have a short-attention span and my thoughts go all over the place), I am having a meeting with the admissions man at Newman in two weeks. The bit about saving money is that I am having this meeting with a friend of mine from school. Obviously the point of going together is to save some money on gas, since we are both broke-ass college students. I totally don't mind the idea of going with this chick, as I really like her and we have very similar goals and objectives. But, I have to be honest in that sometimes I am a little selfish and like things to be more mine than anyone elses. And, I know myself well enough to say that there are times I implement a bit of dominance to get exactly what I want. No, this is not always a good quality, by any means, but I am a little worried that I am going to be really concerned about having my questions answered, which will "force" me to exert a little aggression to ensure my needs are met. I don't really want to bully my friend out of question and answer time...but some people have a tendancy to fucking rattle! Great as this gal is, I have been in class with her for over 8 weeks and this is something I have noted in her conversational skills. So, I am wondering how much strong-arming I'll have to implement, and I am hoping if it comes to this, my friend will understand that I am simply making sure the really important questions are getting answered! Relationships are so difficult!

Oh, and on that note (very quickly as I need to hop in the shower about four minutes ago), my field supervisor, Greg (who is amazing!), was telling me the other day that my dominance is probably a bit threatening to my male counterparts. Not that he was calling me scary or anything, and in fact he was also complimenting my assertiveness, but he was commenting on the fact that he suspected it had caused some problems for me in the past. Clearly, he was correct - and I have found that a lot of guys hope I'll be the the crazy girl in distress so they can swoop in and make everything better, kind of like a Knight in Shining Armour (forgive my very overused cliche). But, yeah - guys that date me kind of have to figure out really quickly that I don't need a hero, by any means. I just need an equal - someone who is as much dominant as they are submissive, such as myself. And, no, I am not speaking of the sexual type of dominant/submissive relationship - ick! I have just found that guys who can be both will mesh better with me, and this is sort of difficult to find. Not impossible, but difficult.

And that is all the random crap I have time to share for now - and yes, I am going to end it without any type of conclusion seeing as there's really no point!